posted 5 days ago with 16 notes

i treated myself. I love socks so much.

posted 1 week ago with 0 notes

angry transsexual man. I don’t want this face, this body, this voice. I have gained NOTHING positive from being a trans man and I’m gonna stop pretending that I have. I abhor being transgender, I loathe and detest it. I am done keeping a level head. I have waited and waited and waited and the uk system is so slow - I need to start T to live. I need surgeries. this is destroying me.

posted 1 week ago with 3 notes

when does being transgender get easier/more bearable? 
cos it been days and weeks and months and years and its still draining the life out of me.

posted 2 weeks ago with 2 notes
#tell me what u do to survive

i don’t give a fuck how smart ke$ha is. I don’t care how much she loves the gays. I don’t care how feminist she is. she is a transphobe and I’m sick of people going on about how awesome she is.

lets not even pretend like a whole bunch of you don’t know she’s transphobic, stop brushing us under the carpet for your feminism n gay marriage.

posted 3 weeks ago with 6 notes


"Woody Allen is a living testament to the way our society fails the survivors of sexual assault"

posted 2 months ago with 2,703 notes
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Candy Darling & Jackie Curtis by Jack Mitchell

posted 3 months ago with 110 notes
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posted 3 months ago with 268 notes
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you're one of the most beautiful boys i've ever seen

u are so sweet, aren’t you

posted 6 months ago with 0 notes
#:) #danke!

i appreciate that everyone is different, i appreciate that people have a right to say “no” to things, i appreciate that attraction isn’t something we have control over but i’m getting terribly bored of being “shot down”.

i think it’s the same with a lot of people; you finally work up the courage to ask someone out and they reject you - fair enough. so you go away, licking your wounds until you meet someone else you become rather enamored with and that infatuation spills over and you feel as if there can be no real harm in letting that person know you’re interested in them; they have every right in the world to not be interested in you and as luck would have it; they’re not. so you start feeling really quite dreadful about yourself and you create this pros and cons list in your head and of course the cons seem to vastly outweigh the pros, or the individual cons are so dreadful that one con is equal to several pros in volume and you “understand” why no one is interested in you and become very “woe-is-me” for a short time.

i’m terribly dull but i can’t help but wonder if my transsexuality is sometimes a pawn in this game; perhaps gay men cannot see themselves with me because of “what i am”,perhaps i shall have more luck when i “”“”“”“”pass”“”“”“”“, perhaps i’ve just had a stroke of bad luck recently???

also, gay men need to stop telling me that my body is “typically unattractive” to gay men and that its “understandable” why they’re not “willing” to go out with me.

or in other words: i’m very hard up and haven’t had sex in a while and i’m getting kinda pissed about it.

(side note: outside of all this i also have a habit of falling for straight men, who can i see to fix my gaydar? its on the fritz)

posted 6 months ago with 4 notes

at work i talked with customers about bengal cats, dostoyevsky/kafka/camus, the magnetic fields and how brown shoes are the best colour for shoes.

posted 6 months ago with 3 notes
#i like working in a coffee shop

it is a daily struggle to remember that i am not 19

(Source: fussybabybitch)

posted 6 months ago with 54 notes
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my friend came in and said “are you taking pictures of yourself on my bed?”

posted 6 months ago with 17 notes

the more days that pass the more i hate the fact i don’t have a penis, the more alien it feels. i keep telling myself that when i am able to feel more comfortable in my body, when i have top surgery, when i have been on testosterone for a while then these negative feelings towards my genitals will subside or become easier to live with, but i think more than anything that i’m in denial. how can one accept themselves if what they have been given is so far removed from what they need or desire?

i still have days where i feel physically sick because of how i am. i am not ashamed to be a trans man, it is fact and that’s how i turned out. what i am ashamed about is my inability to cope with the dissonance between body and brain, i am ashamed at how wrong i am every time i am shown the true image of my body, i am ashamed that i still get startled because i intend to piss standing up and have to realise so many times that i cannot, i am ashamed because too many gay men have shown me that there is no room for me in their world, i am ashamed because of the look i get when i come out to people. there is shame in every inch of my existence and i am ashamed that i cannot control my shame.

i feel as if my sexuality is being packed away, shoved into a tiny container and that i am being scolded every time i try to reach for that pandora’s box. i feel as if i am not allowed access my own sexuality because i am constantly being told that my body is appropriating something that is not mine to engage in. i cannot masturbate, i cannot watch porn. the shame that tidal-waves over me is too much to deal with.

does it get easier with time?
please send in your answers on a postcard…

posted 7 months ago with 3 notes

i have been reading about coffee and drinking tea all afternoon~~~

posted 7 months ago with 1 note